Being back home wasn’t any easier. Seeing Caitlin’s things and pictures on the wall from when she was just a baby wasn’t helping Becca to get better.
But she kept torturing herself by spending all days and nights in her little girl’s room. She deserved it, it was her fault her baby girl was gone, she thought.
“Sweetie, please, you can’t be locked in here forever,” her husband begged her to leave the room. He couldn’t stand the feeling of being powerless. How could he help his wife? He had no idea.
“You need help, honey, let me make you an appointment with my therapist, please!” he grabbed her shoulders and looked her in the eyes, gently shaking her body. But it wasn’t his wife he saw in those beautiful blue eyes he fell in love with all those years ago. They were full of sadness, guilt and misery.
“There is no help for me,” Becca said, “I let it happen, I was there.”
“It’s not your fault baby, no one is blaming you. It was an accident.”
Becca dug her face into her husband’s shoulder. She wasn’t crying though. There were no more tears left in her body. She cried for weeks and she was all dried out now.
“I just want to be alone, please.”
“I’m so sorry,” Julie ran right over when she heard the Coopers are back in town, “I can’t believe it.”
“Me neither,” Cameron returned the comforting hug.
“Is there something I can do for you? Anything.”
“I just don’t want to talk about it anymore,” he said releasing himself from her arms, “everyone is asking how I’m feeling. I feel like shit, my sister is dead. I can’t stand it anymore. I just want to pretend like it didn’t happen for one day.”
“Ok, then,” Julie clapped her hands,” let’s play video games and watch Netfilx all weekend like we always do.”
So that’s exactly what they did. They played their favorite video games.
“Shoot,” Julie shouted.
“I got him, I got him.”
And then they watched a new show they were meaning to start months ago, before Cameron’s family moved away.
During one of the many episodes they watched, Cameron looked at his friend and stared for a little while.
“Hey, you know what?” he finally said and put his arm around her shoulder, “Caitlin always thought I love you and you love me and that we’re gonna get married. She even yelled at the girl I was seeing in Kensington.”
Julie laughed,”what? What did she yell?”
“She was like ‘Cam doesn’t love you, he loves Julie’,” he imitated his sister’s voice.
“Aw, she was the cutest, I miss her.”
Cameron nodded and leaned closer to Julie’s face, “so what if she was right? Maybe we do belong together.”